waiting...waiting...waiting...

keep on and on waiting for...

what am i waiting for???

i should just accept the fact...

we just don't have the fate...

i think it's time for me to accept the fact...

we don't have the fate to continue...

cause you keep on cheating at my back...you are using me...

you break our fairy tale...you break all our dreams and promises...

ya...i do love you much...

im not willing to let you go at all...

but i can't share you with other...i can't accept you keep on cheating at my back...

since your heart cant fully love me...it's useless that i keep you with me...

i feel so tired...tired of keep on fight alone for our relation...

you never appreciate me...you never appreciate what i had done for you...

you will never think for my feelings...you just always do what you want to keep hurting me...
i don't want cry anymore...i don't want get mad anymore...i don't want feel scared anymore...

i hate you so much...i hate you keep on cheating me...

i hate you do all these to me...

i hate that i love you...

time for me to let go...i will let my heart die...

i will not turn back this time...cause you are the one who give up me...

you are the one who kill my heart...

our fairy tale will end here...

bye bye...

i will miss you...

this blog will be dead too...cause all our stories start here...

take care of yourself...

bye....

yesterday was our anniversary...

i waited this for so long...

everyday i also praying to god...hope everything will go smooth on that day...

end up...everything messed up...

we had a bad anniversary...

everything just out of control...i don't know the problem is from you or from me...

in my eyes...you are the one who wrong...in your eyes...im the one who wrong...

my heart do feel sad and pain...i really don't know what to do anymore...

may be all these had arranged by god...

god giving us the signal...telling us we are not gonna work...

may be we should take a break...

think properly whether we gonna work out or not...

think properly do we really love each others...

think properly that are we able to hold our hands tight and walk the rest of the road...

once again...congratulation...you spoil our anniversary again...

i really hate you so much...i know you are lying to me...

you already give me a bad new year eve...

now...you give me another bad anniversary again...

i purposely don't want work today so we can spend our day happily...

but you spoil it...i hate you so much,,,

my heart feel so pain...tears keep on can't stop falling...

im totally disappointed on you...totally speechless...

i will let my heart die...

HAPPY 54TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY...

is 7th again...the day that our fairy tale start...

54 moths ago...we start our lovely fairy tale...

we promised each other we will love each other till the end...

we won't let go of each other hands...

we will pass through all the difficulties...because we do love each other much...

i always hope that we will same like fairy tale...

happily ever after...

i do hope that i will be able to wear the prettiest wedding gown and stand in front of you with my lovely sweet smile...knowing that you are gonna be my bridegroom...

i do hope we will be able to hold each other hands till the death tear us apart...

all these just my wishes...that will never ever be came true...

inside your heart...im not your wife anymore...im not gonna be your bride anymore...

my heart do feel sad and pain...but i don't know what can i do anymore...

i love you...i do really love you much...

i do really appreciate this relationship so much...and i really not willing to let go of my hand...

still left 1 more day...

*happy anniversary to you...love you...muacksss....*



today went out to look for a lovely dress for our anniversary dinner this coming saturday...

these few days i do feel happy with you...

you make me feel that you have come back...

i don't know you are really back or you had promise me you gonna pass this week with me happily and just acting in front of me...

i do hope that you have come back...but i don't know how to continue to walk with you...

my heart feel so scared and lost...

i don't know why...

time really passes so fast...still left 3 more days to go...

this saturday is our anniversary again...hope everything will be okay...

today went to get my baby iphone 4S again...

thanks for your help...

aiksss...damn pk now...use a lot of money...*sigh*...

mummy sorry that i make you so sad...

sorry that i disappointed you so much...please forgive me mummy...

still have 4 more days left...hope everything go smooth...

2nd January 2012

went out with you at 8something...

went to pavilion to get khoon's present...

walked around at pavilion...

after that went to watch mission impossible with you...

such a long time didn't watch movie just both of us alone...

went for supper after that...

talked something with you before i left your car...

i do feel happy when outing with you...

the way you treat me do really make me feel that you are back...

but we know...this kind of happiness just temporary...

3rd January 2012

went for dinner with babes at pavilion...

once again damn full with the dinner...

get your call to celebrate khoon's birthday...

went for steamboat at yulek...

chit-chat a lot there...

make me feel that we had back to last time...

time really passes so fast...we still left 5 more days...

hope we do appreciate the remaining time...

don't know why...suddenly wish to see fireworks with you...

what a stupid wish...this will never come true...

cause there will be no more fireworks...

im really crazy...hahahahaha... XD

hope everything will be fine...

*praying hard*....

yesterday was new year eve...you dump me alone...

so many years you also pass the day with me...

this is the 1st year you dump me alone...

i was so damn sad at the moment...

how can you do this to me??why you always disappoint me??

why you always wanna break my heart like that??

i don't know why you dump me alone...i can feel that you are lying to me...

you spoil my new year eve...you do really give me a bad day...

an unforgetable new year eve...

i hate you so much...