today went out with my best mate...dear yvonne...

such a long time i didn't meet her...miss her so much...

thought today got gathering for national service friends...but they all cancel at de end...haih...

woke up at 9something...

prepared at 10something...no make up today...cause i was lazy...

asked mummy whether i can drive out anot...i know she sure won't let me drive...i just wanna try...

end up by let her scold...i feel so fed up to talk with her...

i feel so sad at that moment...my tears keep on dropping...

asked sister to fetch me out to bus station...

cried all de way in de car...although i was in de bus my tears still can't stop...i know i looked ugly when i was crying...somemore i was in de bus that moment...no choice...i can't control my sadness...

waited yvonne at maluri lrt station...

dear yvonne saw my crying face...feel so sorry to let her see me in that condition...

told all my unhappyness and sadness to my dear...keep on crying all de way when i talk...

i feel that im so useless cause i always just know to cry...but that's de only way i can release my stress...

walked around jusco with my dear...

chit-chat alot while we having tea...

after that we took cab to queen's park...

shopped around at there...

dear yvonne bought a singlet and a skirt at mng...i also bought a skirt at mng...

after shopped...walked back to jusco again...

took my lunch at madam lim...

de food at there not bad...chit-chat at there again...

walked around at jusco again...

accompany dear yvonne went to take cab...cause she date with her sister...

i back with bus...reached home around 4something...

damn moody while reached home...

i dun feel this is my house...

i dun feel that im one of de member in de house...i feel so sad and so stress living here...

mummy dislike me so much...in de house...no one loves me...i feel that im more worst than de people who lend a room in this house...

if you hate me so much what for you wanna born me out???you know u make me feel so sad or not???

took my nap and woke up at 5something...

keep on crying all de way...this month already few times i was like that...

i feel so unhappy to be a human...i really shouldn't be born out...

i feel wanna die so much...i feel so meaningless to live in this world...

i hate my life!!!i really hate my life!!!

if one day i really break down...may be i will end up my life like that...

dun cry for me if i really do so...cause it is not worth to drop your precious tears for me...

27th November...

such a long time i didn't update my blog...

these few weeks keep on busy with my revision class...

life so boring with study...

finally finished my revision class...

but my brain feel so blank...really dunno how to sit for exam...haih...

went out with ke yun(my coursemate) today...

such a long time i didn't go out...

woke up in de early morning prepared all de stuff for hubby cause thought wanna give surprise to him...

prepared and make up myself at 11something...

got some arguement with hubby...haih...

went out at 12something...with my brother...

waited for so long also dun have any bus...

took cab to tasik selatan lrt station...

waited ke yun there...took ktm to mid valley...

walked around at there...damn boring cause we nothing to buy...

took our lunch at sushi king...chit chat at there...

*my food....*
met hubby at 3something...he's busy with his work...

waited hubby to finish de food...

back at 4something...

waited de bus for so long...stupid bus!!!

rain so heavy at that moment...make me all wet de...haih...

reached home at 6something...

9th November...

fall sick yesterday night...

fever and headache like hell...

such a long time i didn't fall sick...

thanks god it recover fast after i took de medicine...

went out with my dear yvonne and hubby today...

woke up at 10something...

took my breakfast and prepared myself...

hubby came fetch me at 12pm...
i drive to yvonne's housing area...
such a long time i didn't drive...thanks god my driving skills didn't turn bad...keke...
had some tea with hubby while waiting dear yvonne prepared...

went to fetch dear yvonne at 12.40pm...
parked de car at central plaza...
walked around at pavilion...didn't get anything...
went to times square cause de sky looks like wanna rain...
dear yvonne went to get de mini skirt that de U-mobile job need...
i bought a shirt there...
bought de face make up remover at yves rocher...
ate some ice-cream at baskin robin...cause it was raining outside...
chit-chat at there...
dear yvonne felt regret to buy that skirt cause it is too short and she scared that her parents will scold her...can't do anything cause must buy de skirt at there...
went back to pavilion again...
walked around at there...
dear yvonne seem like so unhappy at that moment...i think i made her bored...
sorry dear...
after that we went to queen's park...
hubby bought a bag at esprit...finally he get a bag...

went for tea at sushi king...
such a long time didn't eat sushi...

keep on chit-chat at there...

we do really chat a lot...keke...

back at 6pm...

i reached home around 6.30pm...

went out for dinner with my parents...
ate bah kut teh at connaught...

after dinner went to econsave cause daddy wanna buy some fruits for grandma...

saw winnie mah there...

chat alot with her...

reached home at 9pm...

i do really jealous with all my friends that their parents didn't disagree that they have relation...

im so jealous that their parents happy to see them have relation...

im so jealous that all my friends can bring their boyfriends home to show their parents...

every...every...EVERY of my friends parents also agree with them...you know how jealous i feel???

why???why???why???

why i can't same with them???

why i can't have a daddy and mummy same with them???

i feel so sad that i have parents like this...

i hate that they are so stubborn...

i hate that!!!

i hate my life!!!

why wanna born me out???why???

i hate to come to this world!!!!

i really hate to come!!!

HAPPY 16TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

time passes so fast...

hope we will walk till de end...

i will love you forever...cause our love is eternal....

6th November...

today need to go out cause need to take de pda payment...

hubby woke me up around 10am...

prepared and make up myself...

hubby came fetch me at 11am...
accompany hubby go to JPJ which located at permaisuri cause he wanna paid de road tax...
i waited him inside de car...

camwhored while i was alone in de car...

went to hubby's house after he finished paid de road tax...
waited hubby to prepare himself...

went to fetch alex and sonia after hubby finished prepared...

hubby fetch me to de maxis centre to pay our phone bill...cause our lines get cut de....stupid...haih...

after that went to sern yih's house coffee shop to have our brunch while waiting him to come down...

eat chicken rice...

we finished our brunch sern yih also haven't came down...he really damn slow...haha...

we decided walked around at queen's park while waiting sern yih...

tried some roxy shirt there...

we depart at 1.30pm...
it was raining at that time...

went to 3 Two Square at petaling jaya to take our payment...

really dunno how to find that place cause we didn't go there before...

took our payment in CASH...keke...

hubby sent 1 of our colleague...Ah Siang...to taxi station...cause that time was raining...

after that we went to SHOPPING at sunway pyramid...

reached there around 3something...

walked around at there...

camwhored with hubby while waiting them go for toilet...

thought wanna buy make up remover at Yves Rocher...
but de make up remover out of stock...haih...

all of us bought some tops at topshop...

went to skin food cause sonia wanna buy nail polish...

i bought an eye make up remover at there...

after that sonia bought a pair of slippers at padini concept store...

sern yih and sonia get some socks at socks world...

took our late lunch at Carl's Jr...

*our food...*

after that went to jusco to look for ah pow's birthday present
had a rest at outside while they smoking...

camwhored at there...

saw 曾志伟 and other actor at billabong...they are shopping at there

bought ah pow's birthday present at parkson...
tried some shirts at MOXX...

thought wanna buy but de shirt not in a good condition...haih...

went for dinner at murni...

chit-chatting at there...
camwhored at there...

*our food and drinks...*
reached home at 9.30pm...

baby jill took my contact lens to me...

thankx baby....

finally i get my purple lens...keke...

*how i look with my new lens???...*

*my purple lens...*

*de stuff that i bought...de tops hubby bought for me...*