3rd December-5th December...

had my exam in these few days...

feel so nervous before de exam...

thankx for hubby always accompany me for breakfast...

just hope that i can pass all my papers...

exam is over...

im free now...need to find more job to work cause need money so much...

30th November...

finally can date with hubby...

such a long time didn't date with him cause he's busy with his work and i was busy to prepare my exam...

work up in de early morning...help my doggy bath...

after that took my bath and prepared myself...

went out at 11something...

make up at hubby's house while waiting hubby taking his bath...

hubby bought me a quicksilver mug...

*de mugs...*
hubby also help me collected all de madagascar 2 hairbands...thankx hubby...

camwholed with de hairbands...

went out around 1something...

reached pavilion around 1.30pm...
walked around at pavilion...

went to sg.wang...hubby wanna have hair cut...so went to max's saloon...

max was busy with other customer so we walked around at sg.wang 1st...

eat my favourite again...TAKOYAKI!!!...such a long time didn't eat de...yummy!!!

after that went back to max's sallon to have hair cut...
hubby look so nice with new hairstyle...muackx...

walked around over there and took so pictures with de christmas tree at pavilion...

reached home around 7pm...

today went out with my best mate...dear yvonne...

such a long time i didn't meet her...miss her so much...

thought today got gathering for national service friends...but they all cancel at de end...haih...

woke up at 9something...

prepared at 10something...no make up today...cause i was lazy...

asked mummy whether i can drive out anot...i know she sure won't let me drive...i just wanna try...

end up by let her scold...i feel so fed up to talk with her...

i feel so sad at that moment...my tears keep on dropping...

asked sister to fetch me out to bus station...

cried all de way in de car...although i was in de bus my tears still can't stop...i know i looked ugly when i was crying...somemore i was in de bus that moment...no choice...i can't control my sadness...

waited yvonne at maluri lrt station...

dear yvonne saw my crying face...feel so sorry to let her see me in that condition...

told all my unhappyness and sadness to my dear...keep on crying all de way when i talk...

i feel that im so useless cause i always just know to cry...but that's de only way i can release my stress...

walked around jusco with my dear...

chit-chat alot while we having tea...

after that we took cab to queen's park...

shopped around at there...

dear yvonne bought a singlet and a skirt at mng...i also bought a skirt at mng...

after shopped...walked back to jusco again...

took my lunch at madam lim...

de food at there not bad...chit-chat at there again...

walked around at jusco again...

accompany dear yvonne went to take cab...cause she date with her sister...

i back with bus...reached home around 4something...

damn moody while reached home...

i dun feel this is my house...

i dun feel that im one of de member in de house...i feel so sad and so stress living here...

mummy dislike me so much...in de house...no one loves me...i feel that im more worst than de people who lend a room in this house...

if you hate me so much what for you wanna born me out???you know u make me feel so sad or not???

took my nap and woke up at 5something...

keep on crying all de way...this month already few times i was like that...

i feel so unhappy to be a human...i really shouldn't be born out...

i feel wanna die so much...i feel so meaningless to live in this world...

i hate my life!!!i really hate my life!!!

if one day i really break down...may be i will end up my life like that...

dun cry for me if i really do so...cause it is not worth to drop your precious tears for me...

27th November...

such a long time i didn't update my blog...

these few weeks keep on busy with my revision class...

life so boring with study...

finally finished my revision class...

but my brain feel so blank...really dunno how to sit for exam...haih...

went out with ke yun(my coursemate) today...

such a long time i didn't go out...

woke up in de early morning prepared all de stuff for hubby cause thought wanna give surprise to him...

prepared and make up myself at 11something...

got some arguement with hubby...haih...

went out at 12something...with my brother...

waited for so long also dun have any bus...

took cab to tasik selatan lrt station...

waited ke yun there...took ktm to mid valley...

walked around at there...damn boring cause we nothing to buy...

took our lunch at sushi king...chit chat at there...

*my food....*
met hubby at 3something...he's busy with his work...

waited hubby to finish de food...

back at 4something...

waited de bus for so long...stupid bus!!!

rain so heavy at that moment...make me all wet de...haih...

reached home at 6something...

9th November...

fall sick yesterday night...

fever and headache like hell...

such a long time i didn't fall sick...

thanks god it recover fast after i took de medicine...

went out with my dear yvonne and hubby today...

woke up at 10something...

took my breakfast and prepared myself...

hubby came fetch me at 12pm...
i drive to yvonne's housing area...
such a long time i didn't drive...thanks god my driving skills didn't turn bad...keke...
had some tea with hubby while waiting dear yvonne prepared...

went to fetch dear yvonne at 12.40pm...
parked de car at central plaza...
walked around at pavilion...didn't get anything...
went to times square cause de sky looks like wanna rain...
dear yvonne went to get de mini skirt that de U-mobile job need...
i bought a shirt there...
bought de face make up remover at yves rocher...
ate some ice-cream at baskin robin...cause it was raining outside...
chit-chat at there...
dear yvonne felt regret to buy that skirt cause it is too short and she scared that her parents will scold her...can't do anything cause must buy de skirt at there...
went back to pavilion again...
walked around at there...
dear yvonne seem like so unhappy at that moment...i think i made her bored...
sorry dear...
after that we went to queen's park...
hubby bought a bag at esprit...finally he get a bag...

went for tea at sushi king...
such a long time didn't eat sushi...

keep on chit-chat at there...

we do really chat a lot...keke...

back at 6pm...

i reached home around 6.30pm...

went out for dinner with my parents...
ate bah kut teh at connaught...

after dinner went to econsave cause daddy wanna buy some fruits for grandma...

saw winnie mah there...

chat alot with her...

reached home at 9pm...

i do really jealous with all my friends that their parents didn't disagree that they have relation...

im so jealous that their parents happy to see them have relation...

im so jealous that all my friends can bring their boyfriends home to show their parents...

every...every...EVERY of my friends parents also agree with them...you know how jealous i feel???

why???why???why???

why i can't same with them???

why i can't have a daddy and mummy same with them???

i feel so sad that i have parents like this...

i hate that they are so stubborn...

i hate that!!!

i hate my life!!!

why wanna born me out???why???

i hate to come to this world!!!!

i really hate to come!!!