today was my last day went out...

woke up at 10.30am...

played with puppy...

prepared and make up myself at 11something...

went out took bus at 12something...

reached time square at 1pm...

meet up my girls and winnie(primary friend)...unfortunate that sofia cant join us...

walked around at sg.wang...

meet up weng jun there...he look like still de same...

went over to pavilion to try on some clothes at forever 21...took pictures inside de fitting room...

*pictures gonna upload soon*

bought a singlet there...

took our lunch at food court while waiting hubby and jill come...quite nice de western food...

i full untill wanna vomit...+_+"...

walked till de big door and meet up jill and hubby...

yvonne and sammie went back 1st...

hubby bought a shirt for me...i love it...muackx...

thankx hubby...

went to sg.wang find max...but he's so busy...

winnie went back de coz her friend fetched her back...

went to lot10 bought haagen-dazs...

de ice-cream still okie...

went to starhill find vicky...went to carpark then back de...

fetched hubby's sister at maluri...

reached home at 6.10pm...took a nap and woke up at 7.10pm...

went to segar night market around 8pm...

walked around with hubby and little brother...

went to pet shop bought some bones for my puppy and dog...

reached home around 9something...

packed my stuff and took my bath at 10something...

update blog and on de phone with hubby...

i still left few hours...i gonna go for national service de...

dunno how to say my feelings...

i will miss my hubby so much...of course my girls too...

hope that everything will be fine when im in there...

hope that our relation dun have any problems...

god bless me...

today is de last day i meet hubby before i go to national service...

woke up at 11something...hubby woke up at that time too...

prepared myself and went out at 12.30pm...

wait hubby at de usual place...

keep on message him...he didnt raply me...

keep on calling him didnt answer also...

finally he answer my call at de end...

me:now only u wake up ar???

hubby:yup...im coming now...sorry...

me:(im in bad temper)...whatever!!!u no need come de!!!(hang off de phone)...

walked to leisure mall to buy a clock and christmas presents for my girls...

hubby went to leisure mall fetched me...

didnt bother hubby in de car...coz im in bad mood...

saw hubby was crying...he always like to cry...

reached his house at 1.40pm...

watching movie and played with de little boy who care by hubby's mummy...

hubby was keep on crying in front of me...

i know how's he feel...i know that he is sad...

coz im going to national service...he cant see me for 3months...

we will miss each others so much...

he scared that our relation will get into problem...

every couple will scared about it...include of me...

hubby...de only thing i can promise u is i wont give up this relation so easy...

we have passed throught many kinds of problem...

we still love each others so much...

you are de future for me...you are de only one i love...

i will hold you as tight as i can...

i wont let you alone...i wont leave you no matter what happen...

we will passed throught all de problems together...

coz you wont be lonely...i will always be there for you...

dun scared and cry anymore...coz we will pass throught de 3months...

nothing gonna happen to us between de 3months okie???

give confidence to yourself...and our relation okie???

i love u...muackx...

reached home at 6something...took some rest...

took my dinner and went to night market with my little brother at 7something...

bought some stuff for bring to national service...

took bath at 9.30pm...packed my stuff at 10something...

after finished packing...watched movie wait for hubby back home...

update blog and on de phone with hubby...

hubby...i love u so so so much...

26th december

woke up at 12something...

wait little brother came back...

keep on watching television at home and played with my puppy...

bath with puppy too...coz he looked like so itch...

brother came back at 2.30pm...fast fast message hubby asked him get ready...

de movie start at 3.30pm...reached leisure mall at 3pm...

we watched I am legend...

de movie was nice...i cried...coz de dog die...so pity...T.T...

reached home at 5.40pm...

played with puppy...

took a nap at woke up at 7something...

life as usual...

on de phone with hubby....slept at 2.30something...

christmas eve...

*dinner*
*hubby and me...*

*hubby's friend's girlfriend...*

*presents...* *de present for hubby...*

* my present...*

*presents from my girls...*

24th december

today is christmas eve...

feel so happy coz this is de 1st christmas for hubby and me...

woke up at 11something...

supposed to go out watch movie with my girls...

but i cant make it...so meet them abit late...

washed my school bag and bath my puppy...

prepared myself at 2.45pm...

it was raining outside...i need to wait till de rain stop so that i can go take bus...

im rushing out coz im late...

damn jam on de way going to times square...

went down at pudu jail and walked to pavilion...

took picture with my girls...

i received some christmas presents from my girls...

thankx girls...i love it so much...

im so sorry coz i cant get them de christmas present on that day coz i have no time to buy it...

around 5something...accompany sofia took lrt coz she need to back de...

i took lrt to hubby's house...it was raining again...

sofia and me were partly wet when we reached lrt station...

reached hubby's house around 6something...

chit-chatting in his house...

wait untill hubby finished prepared...took our dinner at bukit saga...

i was surprise when i open my bag i saw a christmas present...coz i asked him early on he said he didnt buy present for me...T.T

hubby asked me wait till 12am only can open de present...T.T...so i keep waiting...

ate western food as dinner...we get cheat de...

de dinner took rm61.20...wao...so expensive...+_+"...

i full till wanna vomit...

after that went back fetched hubby's cousin and wait his friends coz we were going to bukit tinggi...

start journey at 10.35pm...reached at 11.50pm...

not really cold there...de christmas decoration still okie...

keep on taking pictures at there...

when 12am...i gave hubby de christmas present...

i told him that i couldn't get him a present this year coz im out of credits...(im lying coz wanna give him a surprise)...

when i gave him de present...he was shocked(i think la)...anyway...hope he will love de present...

it was my turn...im opening my present...i was shocked when i open it half way...de box printed sony...i know what he gave me de...i get a mp3 from him...

i love de present...thankx hubby...

after that they all were dancing shuffle at de bridge...keke...looked so funny...

reached home around 2something...clean up myself...

fall asleep at 3something...im so so so tired!!!

merry christmas to all of u!!!muackx...

22th & 23th december

woke up at 11something...

prepared myself coz later gonna have a trip at malacca...
today is chinese big day...'tong yuan day'...

ate my 'tong yuan' as my breakfast and lunch...

departed at 2pm...

going with my sister,little brother,sister's boyfriend and his two sisters...

boring at car...so took pictures...

keep on sleeping in de car...reach malacca at 4something...

it was raining outside...

reached sister's boss's house around 5something...
gonna stay over night at his house...
watched movie at his house...
de movie was so disgusting...feel wanna vomit after watched that movie...

went out for dinner around 6something...

ate mee as dinner...quite nice...

im full...they said wanna eat somemore...+_+"...

after that went to eat some seafood which call as 'lala',sotong and 'si hum'...

went to de Portugese Settlement to look for de christmas decoration...

all de houses at there were so beautiful...full of christmas view...

took some picture there...went to look around at de hotel which place inside...

it was so quiet...looked like no people stay there...
de hotel was quite cheap...rm150 per day...

at de end we decided to stay overnight at there...
went to ate 'nyonya laksa' and fried small oysters with eggs...nice!!!yummy...

took pictures at House of The Governors...went to de Jonker Walk to walk around...

ate 'cendol' and sushi there...im full...+_+"...

reached hotel around 12something...watched Harry Potter with brother till 3something...

de next day woke up around 9am...

after prepared went out at 10something...

bought some 'kuih' for lunch...

went to eat duck mee...quite nice...

started our journey for A'famosa...

feel sleepy so slept in de car...

reached at 12something...

took alot of pictures there...some of de animals are cute...

watched all de shows which show at there...de multi animals show is nice...i love de puppy...keke

played with de chick...de small chick are so cute...

went off at 5pm...it was raining...

damn jam went coming back to kuala lumpur...

took our dinner at one of de restaurant at seremban...

de foods are delicious...

reached home around 9.30pm...

heard de new puppy barking...

he is so cute...his around 1month big...his name is lucky...

*gonna have more pictures to upload soon*

20th december

went out with my girlfriends...

hubby was joining us...

woke up at 9something...

prepared and make up myself...

bringing little brother along coz he meet up his friends at times square...

went out at nearly 10am...

before went out...mummy said alot of things that's hurt me bad and spoiled my whole day mood...

im so moody while im walking out...

have you enough???i already keep quiet coz i dun wanna argue...why you still wanna keep on saying alot of things that will hurt me???did you think about my feelings???i really feel hard to stay with u!!!in your heart...im so useless and brainless...then why you still wanna born me out???why???you know you spoiled my life!!!you make me feel so hard and you bring alot of sadness to me!!!im enough of u de!!!

reached times square around 10.40am...

brother went to have fun with his friends...

went to neway...there was alot of people...

sing with yvonne and sammie...

saw sister's message...tears dropping down uncontrolable...

my heart feel so sad and hard...

p/s:hubby sorry that make u worry...

at that moment...i hope that i can cry out as loud as i can...

i dun wanna control my sadness anymore...crying is de only way for me to release my sadness...

i cant do that coz hubby dun allowed me to cry...coz he dun wan that im sad...

somemore i dun hope my girls to worry about me...

i control my feelings...

finished at 1pm...accompany my girls to buy some stuff...

meet up sofia...jill cant meet us up coz she's no money out de...but i miss my baby daughter so much...

went to take sticker photo...de machine keep on got problem make us need to take many times...

de photo are nice...hubby wait us till fall asleep de...hehe...

*photo gonna upload soon*

went to sg.wang coz sammie looking for some shoes...but she cant get it...

went to pavilion...sammie and sofia were looking for some jobs...

hubby was looking some shirts for his sister at mickey shop...girls were looking some shoes at there...

while hubby and me were looking shirts...my girls dunno go where de...haih...

they went off didnt tell me at all...mayb im not important to them...

went out searching for them...finally saw them and sammie get her new shoes...

took our lunch at a restaurant...de decoration at there is nice...

but quite expensive...while waiting de food...girls keep on taking pictures...im just like transparent...mayb i think too much de...

i feel that they will be happy although without me...

bought baskin robbin...took some pictures with my girls...

before i separate with my girls...they keep on taking pictures...im just like out of de gang...

it was raining outside...walking back to sg.wang with umbrella...

walked around at sg.wang with hubby while waiting brother's call...

reached home around 7pm de...

im happy today...but de happiness i get today cant cover my sadness...

went to my room...sms sister...said out all my feelings(i know that no use)...tears keep on dropping like crazy...keep on release my sadness...fall asleep and woke up at 8.15pm...

took my bath...cried in de bathroom again...

im so sad...i feel so hard...alot of negative things coming out from my mind...

i have lost everything...

i have lost my parents...my friends and my life...

i feel that my friends dun need me anymore...they can be more happy without me...without me...they can get out of troubles...coz im de trouble maker for them...i make them worry about me with nonsense...

what is de meaning for me to live in de world anymore???

i have lost everything which is important to me...my life is hopeless and meaningless...

i have lost my friendship...i have lost my family love...

i have lost everything...

p/s:girls...you know...you are de most important friends in my life...coz i just have few of true friends in my life...but dunno why...i have de feelings that im gonna lost all of you...you know...when you all went off from mickey shop without inform me...my heart feel so hurt...why cant u all just tell me that u are leaving 1st...mayb im not important...its okie...

when my friends sad...i always tell them dun think so much...everything will be fine...dun be so sad...i feel that im so useless by saying all that kind of words...

i know how to tell people that kind of words...but when im sad...all that kind of words cant get into my mind...

my mind full of negative things...i hope to end my life now...

i feel so tired de...im tired of crying...im tired to suffer from sadness...

can i stop my life now???im so regret that i have been born out...

i need someone by my side now...but i know...although there's someone by my side...he/she cant help me get throught all of this...

my heart is full of sadness and tears...de only thing that i can do is crying...

19th december

woke up at 11something...

ate my breakfast and lunch...

prepared myself and went out at 12.45pm...

went to leisure mall watch ' Alvin and the chipmunks ' with my little brother and hubby...

mummy asked brother go back home tell her what i have done whole day...

she's so over!!!how can she like that???haih...

reached there at 1pm...bought de tickets...

separated with brother...went over buy some stuff alone...

met hubby at 2something...

movie start at 2.45pm...

de chipmunks are so cute...

de movie was nice...finished at 4something...

reached home and help mummy do de housework...

everything just like normal...

on de phone with sammie and sofia...

talking alot of stuff...

sammie just like busy with something...just like dun hv de time to talk with me...

slept at 1something...

damn boring at home...nothing to do...so update my blog...

look back all de pictures in my phone...

really took alot of pictures...

alot of memories flow in my mind...happiness and sadness...

wont ever forget all this memories...

coz that's my life...

time passed so fast...year 2007 gonna end de...

so fast im graduate from my secondary school de...

although i dun really like de school...but i will miss all de time i had spent there...

i will miss all my friends...teachers and so on...

*my table...*

look back at this picture...i miss my table so much...keke...i miss all de pictures i took in school...i miss all de crazy time im in school with my girls...

hope that our friendship will last forever...

i really dun wanna lost u all...coz u all are de most wonderful gift de god had given to me...

im so happy to have u all as my friends...coz u all always be my side no matter im sad or happy...

u all always share my sadness and happiness...i cant imagine how's my life gonna be if u all not beside me...

girls...thankx alot...my life is so wonderful with u all...muackx...

anyway...i will miss ur girls when im at de national service camp...

countdown:still have 12 more days im gonna left de...T.T

woke up at 10something...

im so sleepy...T.T...coz yesterday i slept at 3something...T.T

tell mummy that im going out...

prepared myself...

ate my breakfast at de kitchen...

mummy keep on saying that im childish...brainless...useless in front of grandma...

she so suckx!!!i really fed up on her de...

what can i do???i just can keep quiet...haih...

stupid family!!!old minded mother!!!

went out at 12something...

hubby fetching his parents to pavilion...

hubby and me went to sg.wang...

went to max's saloon find max and wing...

chit-chatting at there...long time didnt chat with them de...really miss them much...

after that accompany hubby to buy something...

meet hubby's friends...walked around with them...

before we left sg.wang...hubby went to buy a teddy bear for his little sister...

left there at 3.30pm...coz i need to reach home at 4pm...

im going for my yoga class which will start at 5pm...

damn jam on de way home...

reached home and change into my yoga suit...

de teacher was nice...really relax at there...

class finished at 6something...

went back home and rest for awhile...

took dinner and bath...updating blog...

damn tired...+_+"

dun really have things happen today...

woke up at 1.45pm...

ate two pieces of papaya and one orange as my lunch...

watching television till 3something...

went to my room reading comics...

whole day didnt talk with daddy and mummy...

coz dun wanna get scold by them de...

sometime i really dunno how to be a daughter...

lie at them cannot...tell them de truth get scold...

really feel hard with them...

they always think that they are right...im wrong...

they always thinking that having couple in this age are stupid...

im stupid...im useless...im brainless...

how can u all say that to me???im ur daughter...

why cant u all just try to stand at my side and think for me???

why u dun think about my feelings???

i always have my feelings de...im human...not a barbie doll...always must listen to u all...

i always keep quiet doesn't mean that im always wrong...

i keep quiet because i dun wanna argue...

coz i know...although i say out my feelings...

u also wont listen...coz in ur mind...im wrong...

i know u all very care me...i wan what u also will try to give me...

but i really hope that u can understand my feelings...

why others daddy and mummy can understand their daughter and not worry them to couple...why u cant same with them???

our mind should increase by de century...

i really feel hard to be ur daughter...

u really shouldn't born me out...i feel so hard coz im suffer in sadness and hurts...

just because of ur stupid old thinking...u make me feel so hard!!!

why cant u just try to change ur thinking so that u and me will be happy???!!!

aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!talk with u also waste my time!!!!

stubborn daddy and mummy!!!!

today whole day just boring at home...

thankx for my mummy!!!!

9soemthing my babe anne sms me...

she got some problem...haih...

anyway...anne...hope that u will be fine...

find me if u need me...i will always be there for u...

13th december

woke up at 10something...

suppose to go out with hubby...but cancel de...

hubby woke up nearly 2pm...

sms with him and he told me that yesterday he get punch de...

im so worry about him...thankx god that he's okie...

took bath at 3something...coz going out to leisure mall watch enchanted with my brother...hubby is joining us...

reached there at 4something and bought de tickets...

de movie start at 4.45pm...

de movie is so nice...

de most meaningful words in de movie is "de most powerful thing in de world is a kiss"...

really a nice movie...

finished at 6.30pm...walked around leisure mall...

reached home at 7something...

at night telling mummy that tomorrow im going to malacca...

mummy know that im going with hubby was so angry...keep on scolding...she dun let me out at tomorrow...she said if i out...she will change all de lock...

im so sad on what she had said...im so disappointed at her...

daddy know about that i have boyfriend de...he's angry too...he also keep on scolding me...

i feel so hard to live with them...they are so stubborn...why cant they mind become abit open???

im so sad...keep on crying...calling sammie...feel better after talk with her...

i really hope that i can go to de national service as fast as possible...coz i dun wanna live with them anymore...

cant in sleep at de night...online till 4am only sleep...

hubby was accompany me...thankx hubby...

life suckx...haih...

12th december

woke up at 9something...
hubby call me at 10something...

he said he's gonna come fetch me...
i haven't prepared at all...
put on my make up at de half way...

i feel that im so weird...+_+"

hubby fetch jorgen(his friend) to do something...
after that when to hubby's house waiting him to prepare...

played with hubby's little cousin...

he is so cute...he keep on covered me with blanket...

he seem like wanna kiss me...keke...

finished my make up at hubby's house...

went out at 12something...

we are going to genting...

jorgen...ah pow and hubby's big cousin brother also following...

it was raining on de way going...

reached there nearly 2pm de...

de weather was so cold there...coz of raining...

they all were going to de casino...

hubby was trying to bring me in...

unfortunately we were checked...feel so fish...

after that hubby and me walked around at de first world...

de view at there was so nice...

*me...and de christmas tree...*

after that...hubby and me went to de ripley's believe it or not...

took alot of picture inside...

*hubby and me...*

around 5something...took our lunch at burger king...edited by hubby...went back at nearly 6pm...

reached home 7something...

feel very happy today...=>

Happy 5th month anniversary!!!

hubby i really love u so much...

we have been couple for 5months de...

thankx for giving me alots of happiness between this 5months...

sorry that i always make u hurt and give u alot of sadness...

sorry that i always broke my promises...

i really hope u will forgive me and we will have alot alot of anniversary for de coming days...

i love u till de end i die...muackx....

woke up at 9something...

thought that gonna cook spaghetti coz yesterday tell mummy that im gonna cook de...

when i went downstair...mummy asked me no need cook de...

then she keep on saying alot of things that hurt me lots...

i cant take it anymore...i broke down and tears falling down from my eyes...

went back into my room then fall asleep de...

woke up at 11something...

when mummy finished cook wanna go out de...

i told mmmy that im going out later...

prepared myself...hubby came fecth me at 1something...

im so moody in de car...coz i really dun have de mood...my heart feel so sad...

went to hubby's house...hubby fall sick de...

damn serious...keep on having fever...

went out to take lunch...

after lunch...hubby went back home took medicine...

i used a handkerchief and made it wet help hubby wipe his face and body...

after that he's feeling better...his body not so hot de...

de 1st time i take care for my boyfriend when he's sick...

and hubby is de 1st one i take care for...

reached home at 6something...

whole day didnt talk with mummy de...

took a nap and woke up at 7pm...

took dinner and bath...

after that...update my blog...

that's all for today...

p/s:hubby...hope u will get well soon...muackx...babe always be there for u...^.^

6th december

woke up at 9something...

prepared myself...coz going to jusco member day with mummy...
went out at 10something...

started jam when nearly reached maluri...

boring in de car...took some picture...

*my fatty face...*

jusco carpark was full...

made mummy need to park at carrefour then we walked to jusco...

it was raining...T.T...get wet de...

there was crazy lots of people...

feel panic when inside there...

*full of people...*

i bought two new bra for new year and some t-shirt for me bring to national service and some shorts for house wear...

mummy also bought some shirt for daddy and my little brother...

really bought alot of things...

damn tired coz lots of people...

finished shopping at 4something...

reached home and took a nap...coz got headache...

woke up at 6something...

get ready to tell mummy about kraven...

mummy was so unhappy that i got boyfriend de...

keep on saying alot of things that make my hearts feel sad and i cried de...

i really hate her...she dun ever understand my feelings...

she always think that she's right...im wrong...

i really dunno how to stay with her...she make me feel so hard...

why cant she try to understand me???

she always so stubborn...

suppose to spend midnight with hubby...

coz that's our 5th month anniversary...

but mummy spoiled all my mood de...somemore i dun think she will let me go...

keep on crying coz i really feel so so so sad...

why i have that kind of mother???

i really feel that i shouldn't born in this world...

since im child till now...u dun really like me...

why u still wanna born me out???u should kill me when im a baby...

coz u spoiled my life...u make me get alot of sadness and hurts....

p/s:girls sorry for make u all worry about me...i will okie...i just need time...

5th december

woke up at 9something...

prepared myself coz later going out with my dear anne and dear sammie...
sammie reached my house at 10something...

we are going to cheras plaza neway sing k...
suppose is jill join anne and me...
but she put my aeroplane...

so make sammie accompany us...

after make up myself...walked to leisure mall with sammie...

reached there around 11something...

went inside de room and started our singing time...

*anne and sammie while singing...*

we really sing alot of songs...

finished at 2.15pm...

took photo inside de room...

*anne...jess...sammie...*

*babe anne and me...*

*dear dear sammie and me...*

after that..we went to leisure mall to look for something...

i went to look for de christmas present for hubby...

what is it???shhhhh...it's gonna be a surprise for him...keke...

then anne gonna hv a date with her boyfriend...

i accompany sammie to de bus station...

reached home at 3.30pm...

*girls...i love u all so much...muackx...*